Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Have been very pissed off by clients for the past few weeks or perhaps months, but yet I couldn't bark at them, though I felt like yelling " Just gimme the bloody documents!!! You are not bringing them with you when you are six feet under!!!" Well, to be true to myself, they are making my life one hell of a nightmare because of my stupid mistake in late August. So, I've been gulping my pride and apologizing to the respective bastards and bitches.
Couldn't release my anger to my colleagues, because that would be unprofessional and the most solid reason for not being able to do that is because, I'm still a super duper junior in the firm... No subordinates for me to bully yet.
Tried complaining to my friends, but too much complaining makes me feel like I'm totally selfish and self-absorbed. Which in fact some of them are already claiming that behind my back... But man, I'm tired of apologizing to colleagues and clients, just gimme a break!
Last year at this time, I could've released my anger to this particular unfortunate man, but sad to say, he doesn't exist in my life anymore. (should do some man-hunt in near future, helps in anger management, or perhaps anger absorbent)
Last but not least, it's the family members of course. They are the ones I've taken granted for and I knew would always be there for me. But on second thought, maybe I should just spare them the bother and not let them be worried of me. Frankly speaking, my mom has had enough of my tantrums during my "balik kampung time", and I felt guilty for my lack of filial piety.
Possible to find solace in alcohol, but my bloody credit card statements are showing horrifying figures. What can I do other than blog... the emotion dump-site!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
I remembered 3 or 4 years ago, when I saw my X's X's gf and when I'm green with jealousy... I would think to myself, she's old and I'm young and there's no reason for myself to be GREEN IN COLOUR. Especially when I saw her dancing in clubs, I would again think to myself, at her age.... maybe she should just positioned herself quietly at a corner with a glass of wine.
Aheemmm... Back then she was at my present age, 24/25. So now I'm at that age, I'm beginning to think am I old or am I still young...
So how do you judge whether a girl is old or not...(physically/mentally old) ????
- When she notices that there's less guys checking her out
- When she notices her first wrinkles
- When she notices that she looks like Snow White's stepmom after one night of staying up
- When she notices that she spends most of her leisure time at home
- When she notices that she could only dance non-stop for the max of half an hour
- When she notices that she has less friends
- When she notices that she has less single friends
- When she notices that she gain weight easily
- When she notices that she doesn't giggle that often anymore
- When she notices that she's not that much a Big Spender anymore
Well.. To be optimistic, we can call it turning into a matured adult. To be pessimistic, we can call it turning into an old sag. To keep to the bright side, we shall say, we don't stop playing because we grow old; we grow old because we stop playing. CHEERS!!!