Monday, June 25, 2012

The City and Us

Melancholy mood is at times an addiction. Girlfriend of mine has been telling me how blue she is but yet when I questioned her the reason to her gloominess, she couldn't tell me the reason, but to brush off the matter as, "I'm simply blue and bored."

Loneliness? Crisis of hitting the digit 3? Melodramatic? I can't find another adjective to describe her feelings. But somehow, I understand. There's just this bit within us that thought if we were more financially comfortable, we would have been happier... But yet, it's not the money which causes this confused mind of us.

It's just the bustling city, the exhausting rat race, the malicious materialism, the endless traffic jam and the coldness of being alone, which made us forget why we were here, what were we trying to achieve, who are we, which is the right path and how did we become who we are right this moment. Looking at the mirror, this stranger like face, I asked myself, where did all my ambitions go? Long drown by the hectic life in this city called, Kuala Lumpur. 

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

We Shouldn't Give Up

One of my latest addictions is an application game on my iPhone called "Oh Sushi". This addiction has lasted for more than 6 months. Comments from my housemates were,

"PY, you still playing that game?" or
"PY, go take your shower and stop playing with the game..." or
"PY, time for bed and stop playing with the game..."

That's my level of addiction in an application game which was "free" when I downloaded it. Others would have thought it was merely an indulgence in addictive games. But somehow, myself would partly explained this latest addiction as, "I'm stalling as I'm unhappy about my work/career and hence I have resort to this brainless but yet addictive game."

Having said that, that was how I reacted to failure or to be optimistic, a temporary downtime in my career, things will pick up soon and eventually. A hideaway with an apple product. But I'm not giving up, not yet.

Today, I picked up a call from my girlfriend, naively thinking that it was just a call for drinks which was unusual on a weekday. But unfortunately, the purpose of the call was to deliver a shocking and sad news. Nope, nobody pass away (if that's what you thought and perhaps if I'm a Christian, I would say Amen.. If Amen is meant to be spoken in this manner. Anyway, I'm not ). The call delivered a news of our good friend, whom has chosen to abandon the failure of his business why disappearing himself, from his business counterparts, from his employees, from his friends, from his girlfriend and also from his family.

I'm not sure how much truth there is in this latest rumor. Perhaps there are other details behind the story which I'm not aware of, but being my usual self, I wouldn't validate much. We aren't best friends, but we were good. I feel sad that he has chosen to give up when there could've been so many other options out there. Or so I thought. But SY, whenever you are, I hope you are safe, healthy and pulling it through.

Nights SY.